Potential

Leaves

Ask anyone who knows us. We don’t rush into things.

We study the situation. We agonize over the details. We talk out the possibilities, mentally try out a series of “what-ifs”, watch the wind, wait for the stars to align.

Stakes

We think of alternatives that delay further decisions. We come up with Plan A, then re-evaluate in favor of Plan B, then C…

Sure, we’ve been known to make impulse decisions. You only have to look at our overflowing book shelves and CD collection to realize that.

Arrival

But some things take a long time to develop, and the longer you wait to start them, the longer you wait to enjoy them. Things like cheese, and cider, that need to develop flavor slowly, over months and sometimes years. Or a perennial bed. Or the asparagus bed that I still haven’t planted (being too worried all these years about choosing the wrong location, so never choosing any location).

Golden Russet

Two birthdays ago, I bought M an orchard. Rather, a potential mini orchard of four apple trees and two pear trees. I figured we’d waited long enough, and after we lost our favorite Golden Russet tree to Hurricane Irene, it seemed a sign to plant a new one, and a few others while we were at it.

Planting

Golden Russet, golden dog

We should have bought those trees years ago. We should have planted them the summer after we moved the house. Imagine how big those trees would be now? Not full-grown, by any means, but…bearing fruit.

That which we should have done we did not do.

But that doesn’t mean we can’t do it now.

Liberty

We had those trees planted a couple weeks ago. The nursery where I bought them was kind enough to let them stay there until we were ready for them. Then they came with shovels and strong arms and fertilizer and mulch, and they planted.

Seckel Pear

Cox's Orange Pippin

The beautiful part of having made a decision, having finally taken an action, is that you get the satisfaction of waiting and watching the gradual outcome: the soft layer of white mold developing day by day on the camembert; the regular, reassuring “burping” of the cider as it ferments; the tender branches of the baby trees spreading out, and the first buds appearing next year.

Cold day for planting

Of course, we’re on the brink of winter now, and the saplings have lost most of the few leaves they had a couple weeks ago. But I like to imagine below the surface, their roots stretching out comfortably for the first time in their own plot of land, feeling at home and settling in for the long haul, waiting on spring.

Hard freeze on the Golden Russet

7 thoughts on “Potential

  1. i loved this rebecca and i feel as if we are the same kind of desicion makers as you guys are. i needed to read this, i needed to acknowledge that waiting is also letting time go by that would have yielded results by now.

  2. I am hoping to plant a few more fruit trees at the house we just bought. I want more citrus and perhaps a peach, plum, or apricot. I’ve never planted a tree before so I’m both excited and intimidated by the idea!

  3. Beautiful post…makes me long for spring. I, too, let the weight of making the *right* decision get in my way and prevent me from making *any* decision. Luckily E is much more impulsive and can sometimes (only sometimes) push me into actually *doing*. 🙂

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